I hate myself

I love a woman wifh my whole being. I've loved her for an eternity and I will never be with her. She is perfect in every way and no one else will ever compare. I will live alone and die alone. I hate myself. I hate everything about me and no matter how much I change or what I do she will never see me as someone else. I'm tired of life. I'm tired of failing and losing and never being able to get up. I'm a loser who deserves nothing. Just tell me you hate me and be gone. I dont even want comments or people to notice me. I just want to say my peace.