I’m heartbroken don’t ever believe anything anyone says to you

He said all the same things to every single girl that he said to me that they have a special place in his heart and how beautiful they are and how much he loves them just like he did with me I ignored it for ages but it was happening too often so I mentioned it to him how much it hurt and we ended up blocking each other. I was never special to him. He kept leaving me on kik I came here to talk to him about that , just asking what happened I was worried sick about him I thought something bad happened he did it on my birthday too. I loved him I don’t know why I just did I told him what my friend did he was more jealous then anything yet he just left me as he couldn’t cope with me being jealous. I will always love him. He knew me when I was in my teens too. He knew all about my mental illness, I put up with everything from him I can’t even mention it I loved him I put him first before everything and look were it got me.