I Don't Say I Love You Unless I Mean It
I just found out something... Something that broke my heart. Something that keeps me sad for days.
Someone who has a place in my heart just blocked me... I don't know what is he thinking about me, I don't know why he thought that was the good thing to do, I don't know if he thinks that I just forget about him, I don't know what to think, I don't know what to do, I don't know...
Yes, maybe it was a little of my fault, maybe I give him a lot of space, maybe if I didn't think that I wasn't important to him...
The moment I decided to not log in for days I was feeling down, I thought he didn't want to talk with me, he didn't care about me anymore, I was bothering him if I talked to him, I was just expecting him to talk to me.
Right now, nobody can fix this, there's not what if...? Maybe he thinks I don't care about him, that everything I said wasn't truth, but it was truth... I wouldn't be feeling this way if it wasn't truth.
Someone told me to write how I'm feeling with this... I don't know how to feel. At moments I'm feeling sad, I wasn't there as I promised, I don't know if he needed me, I don't know it because I wasn't online. At moment I'm feeling mad, why he didn't try to talk to me? Why I don't have messages from him? Why he didn't think about me? Why? Why? Why?
Wow, I just read everything I wrote again. Its been 4 days since that. I'm feeling the same way, nothing changed but right now I'm missing him. I miss every talk with him, I miss the way I felt with him, I miss to try to make him laugh, I miss to be silly with him, to be ridiculous, to be me. I miss to be insecure (ridiculous right?), I miss to smile every time he texted me, I miss to laugh with him, I miss to make him feel better.
I don't know if he still wants to talk with me, if he considers me a friend, I just know that I have another account and look for him everyday, some days once or twice a day (maybe this is a little stalker but, I had to know about him, how he's making it..), I think about him everyday.
Maybe you would unblock me someday and you're going to read this... I miss you, I do care about you, I want to be there when you need me (I just thought you'd like to have some space, I was wrong), I want to make you feel better... I just want to be in your mind when you need someone to talk, someone to laugh with, I just want to be there.
Someone who has a place in my heart just blocked me... I don't know what is he thinking about me, I don't know why he thought that was the good thing to do, I don't know if he thinks that I just forget about him, I don't know what to think, I don't know what to do, I don't know...
Yes, maybe it was a little of my fault, maybe I give him a lot of space, maybe if I didn't think that I wasn't important to him...
The moment I decided to not log in for days I was feeling down, I thought he didn't want to talk with me, he didn't care about me anymore, I was bothering him if I talked to him, I was just expecting him to talk to me.
Right now, nobody can fix this, there's not what if...? Maybe he thinks I don't care about him, that everything I said wasn't truth, but it was truth... I wouldn't be feeling this way if it wasn't truth.
Someone told me to write how I'm feeling with this... I don't know how to feel. At moments I'm feeling sad, I wasn't there as I promised, I don't know if he needed me, I don't know it because I wasn't online. At moment I'm feeling mad, why he didn't try to talk to me? Why I don't have messages from him? Why he didn't think about me? Why? Why? Why?
Wow, I just read everything I wrote again. Its been 4 days since that. I'm feeling the same way, nothing changed but right now I'm missing him. I miss every talk with him, I miss the way I felt with him, I miss to try to make him laugh, I miss to be silly with him, to be ridiculous, to be me. I miss to be insecure (ridiculous right?), I miss to smile every time he texted me, I miss to laugh with him, I miss to make him feel better.
I don't know if he still wants to talk with me, if he considers me a friend, I just know that I have another account and look for him everyday, some days once or twice a day (maybe this is a little stalker but, I had to know about him, how he's making it..), I think about him everyday.
Maybe you would unblock me someday and you're going to read this... I miss you, I do care about you, I want to be there when you need me (I just thought you'd like to have some space, I was wrong), I want to make you feel better... I just want to be in your mind when you need someone to talk, someone to laugh with, I just want to be there.
26-30, F
