You still are a really good writer. I've done the same except my notebooks that i was writing in got stolen and also my ipad. Most of my writing though is either on here, in all it's raw form, or scribbled on the back pages of my books, so i guess i can always go back and try to start over again.
I know the guy who wrote, "Man's search for meaning." Lost his manuscript when he was forced into a Jewish concentration camp during wwII and he still managed to rewrite what he could remember.