I Want You to Write a Ten Word Story

There is a part of you that feels like this, and there is a part of you that can observe you feeling like this. The later part does want to live, it just wants to live much happier and more peacefully. (it never ceases to exist anyway -- regardless of what you think you want) Let the second part see the 'emotional ego' for what it is and accept that these kinds of feelings are part of the human experience -- just a passing emotion that is reacting to current events -- it's cumulative emotions often built on erroneous assumptions or misunderstanding of reality -- it's not the YOU who you really are -- the observing part of you IS who you really are. When you become aware of this other part of you (the spirit within) you can accept that all of your ego reactions are only that and nothing more.
'A New Earth' by Eckhart Tolle gives a beautiful, clear explanation of the two sides within all of us.

You have to live because something really good is waiting for you and you are something someone else is waiting for.

What would everyone else feel if you got what you seem to want?