how can you cope in times of deep fear, anxiety & worry
i've always been a worrywart and struggled with thinking pessimistically, struggled with insecurity as well throughout my life and not feeling stable in my situation...and at the moment with the things going on in the world, it's adding to my burden?
my wonderful mother always tells me not to worry about things out of my control, put my faith in god, talk to god and just focus on my own little life and the things i can control....mum also says ' things will be okay, it will all work out'.
i adore and love my mum , godbless her, i'm devoted to my mother, i've always been exceptionally close to my mum, and we've loved each other very deeply, i care so much for my mum, i put mum before me, always have, my mums happiness, health and welfare is the most important thing in my life.....and i just worry at times, because i'm aware she's getting older, and i can't control that?....thankfully my mum tells me she's doing well for her age...but she's been through a lot of stress with me, because i've suffered with mental problems since 16, i'm late 40s now....but she always consoles my immense guilt feelings on how i've affected her, telling me it's not my fault, i've had severe mental problems and she loves me.
of course i have other family, i have 2 sisters up where my mum lives, i have quite a lot of extended family further afield down south, , in essex and kent........but my mothers the main one in my life as my mum always has been......right back when she took me to playschool and i was crying uncontrollably, because i didn't want my mum to leave me there on my own?, in the early 80s sometime.
and i just keep fretting- worrying about a time in the future when my mum won't be here and it feels with terror and devastation just the thought, and i've decided thats when i will leave this earth too, to follow my mother, as life will no longer have any meaning or purpose.. my mum is the only reason i keep going with my life....i've never met anyone like my mum, with her devotion, her love, her care, her personality, her spirituality, her qualities,...the things i adore and thank god for......no one i've ever known can compare to my mothers qualities or even comes close to that.
i realize this is very long, but just writing what's in my heart.....can anyone offer and consolation possibly?
my wonderful mother always tells me not to worry about things out of my control, put my faith in god, talk to god and just focus on my own little life and the things i can control....mum also says ' things will be okay, it will all work out'.
i adore and love my mum , godbless her, i'm devoted to my mother, i've always been exceptionally close to my mum, and we've loved each other very deeply, i care so much for my mum, i put mum before me, always have, my mums happiness, health and welfare is the most important thing in my life.....and i just worry at times, because i'm aware she's getting older, and i can't control that?....thankfully my mum tells me she's doing well for her age...but she's been through a lot of stress with me, because i've suffered with mental problems since 16, i'm late 40s now....but she always consoles my immense guilt feelings on how i've affected her, telling me it's not my fault, i've had severe mental problems and she loves me.
of course i have other family, i have 2 sisters up where my mum lives, i have quite a lot of extended family further afield down south, , in essex and kent........but my mothers the main one in my life as my mum always has been......right back when she took me to playschool and i was crying uncontrollably, because i didn't want my mum to leave me there on my own?, in the early 80s sometime.
and i just keep fretting- worrying about a time in the future when my mum won't be here and it feels with terror and devastation just the thought, and i've decided thats when i will leave this earth too, to follow my mother, as life will no longer have any meaning or purpose.. my mum is the only reason i keep going with my life....i've never met anyone like my mum, with her devotion, her love, her care, her personality, her spirituality, her qualities,...the things i adore and thank god for......no one i've ever known can compare to my mothers qualities or even comes close to that.
i realize this is very long, but just writing what's in my heart.....can anyone offer and consolation possibly?
46-50, M