I Express Myself Through Writing
The process of my painful transformation had started nearly a year ago. I saw myself making decisions I wouldn't have made had I not undergone this reformation of self. Cutting down the dead branches and letting the new ones grow, burning down bridges to places I no longer need to go.
I have learned many things about myself and about how I see the world I live in. I cannot see this "good" or that "evil" the world has proclaimed to be absolute. I see benefit and detriment, strength and weakness. Of course I could go on for days as to what those are as well. However , I have observed something to be true, all strengths require pushing past what we once thought was possible.
I have noticed so many people stuck and unable to gain strength to move forward. I'm unsure why, but I find myself pushing those types of people away from me more and more. Am I selfish for this? Does this make me a bad person in the eyes of others? For letting go of people who are otherwise helpless? All I know for sure is I'm not the person I was before, and I'm ok with it. What once was a boy is perhaps now a man.
I have learned many things about myself and about how I see the world I live in. I cannot see this "good" or that "evil" the world has proclaimed to be absolute. I see benefit and detriment, strength and weakness. Of course I could go on for days as to what those are as well. However , I have observed something to be true, all strengths require pushing past what we once thought was possible.
I have noticed so many people stuck and unable to gain strength to move forward. I'm unsure why, but I find myself pushing those types of people away from me more and more. Am I selfish for this? Does this make me a bad person in the eyes of others? For letting go of people who are otherwise helpless? All I know for sure is I'm not the person I was before, and I'm ok with it. What once was a boy is perhaps now a man.
31-35, M
