I should..I should 🤔
I should do all the things, all the time.
My brain punishes me with it. The things I should do.
One of the things is to write here, though I’m doing it now not to satisfy that ‘should’. I’m doing it because of all the other ‘shoulds’.
I have so many draft posts saved. But mostly when I write here, it’s a moment in time, something on my mind. I don’t write in advance, I don’t schedule, I just sit down and bang away at the keyboard, and post it.
For that to work, my mind has to have something in there that it considers worth putting down, spur of the moment style. And if I am fuzzy minded, it stalls, it doesn’t work, doesn’t feel right. I may start, and then run out of steam. I end up saving it as ‘yet another draft’ that waits there amongst the others. Number 199 or something, I think.
It’s not like I need another more compelling reason than ‘I don’t want to’ when I handle ‘shoulds’. I don’t need more reasons, that’s the truth. But I could, at least, force myself past ‘I don’t want to’ in the olden times, those glorious days of yore when it felt like I had some semblance of control over whatever tangents my brain chose to go down.
Note: While writing this, I glanced over at news posts and you nearly lost me for I am easily distracted by short bursts of fast-scrolling random repetitive nonsensical nothingness , out of which I have muted everything that is likely to make me unhappy or stressed (and that’s a LOT of things right now, let me tell you).
There are a lot of ‘shoulds’ floating around for me, but the ‘should’ that brings me here to write today is, OH LOOK, A SQUIRREL🐿 !!
Gotta go 😁😂
My brain punishes me with it. The things I should do.
One of the things is to write here, though I’m doing it now not to satisfy that ‘should’. I’m doing it because of all the other ‘shoulds’.
I have so many draft posts saved. But mostly when I write here, it’s a moment in time, something on my mind. I don’t write in advance, I don’t schedule, I just sit down and bang away at the keyboard, and post it.
For that to work, my mind has to have something in there that it considers worth putting down, spur of the moment style. And if I am fuzzy minded, it stalls, it doesn’t work, doesn’t feel right. I may start, and then run out of steam. I end up saving it as ‘yet another draft’ that waits there amongst the others. Number 199 or something, I think.
It’s not like I need another more compelling reason than ‘I don’t want to’ when I handle ‘shoulds’. I don’t need more reasons, that’s the truth. But I could, at least, force myself past ‘I don’t want to’ in the olden times, those glorious days of yore when it felt like I had some semblance of control over whatever tangents my brain chose to go down.
Note: While writing this, I glanced over at news posts and you nearly lost me for I am easily distracted by short bursts of fast-scrolling random repetitive nonsensical nothingness , out of which I have muted everything that is likely to make me unhappy or stressed (and that’s a LOT of things right now, let me tell you).
There are a lot of ‘shoulds’ floating around for me, but the ‘should’ that brings me here to write today is, OH LOOK, A SQUIRREL🐿 !!
Gotta go 😁😂
