are there writers here?

i'm a little hesitant to post this because i don't like claiming to be a "writer". i'm so bad at it, i'm like literally shit, i ignore that hobby, i'm ashamed of it ( i'm not ashamed of writing, i'm just not confident with how i do it ), and i hate looking at the stuff that i keep inside my notes. i've actually written fan fiction before like a normal teenager when i was around 11 to 13. but i don't think i'm improving, at all. is this normal?

if you do write, are there tips on how to get better? i've been considering reading novels more but i've been busy and it's so hard to find time, especially with how short my attention span is. i'm just trying to write more because it's somehow an outlet for my imagination and pent-up maladaptive daydreaming plots.