Unravelled

Unravelled

Like trying to wake from a bad dream I feel the world coming apart around me
Nothing to stop that sense of spinning that grips me when I am alone
No reprieve from the crippling sense of worthlessness
Something never to be shared for fear of being pulled down once more

The pain of just living like a creature is trying to claw itself from within
But the pain never became strong enough to make me give in completely
No matter how much sweet relief that would bring to me
So many ways I have pondered to make it all go away forever.

Just one failure after another and even the things that helped
Are taken away one by one and with it the path becomes clearer
Just that final step, one more crushing blow to show me that I have nothing left
My mind body and soul unravelled before me as I wish it all to be done