Truth and weakness

Words that cut so deep that I felt I had nothing left
Left myself wide open and took the knock for it
My insecurities laid bare and told me it was not enough
Wanting nothing more than for you to hate me

Taken in turn and told it is true
Unable to overcome the mistakes and called a coward
Unable to give everything and branded a liar in return
Blame is handed out before a wall is thrown up between us

Never was the intent to play the victim
Nor was it ever my intention to slip and become weak
Not be the one that you needed and give all I could

I never seem to learn the lessons offered
Chances to stay away but not strong enough to do so
Tried to take all that pain and make it end and even failed then
That lost part of my soul that I thought we both knew

Not something that comes along again and again
it is not an extension of what we want, it is a part of us and our need
A fulfilment of something we have always felt was missing
Not a spare part to switch in and out as required