Against the wall

Against the wall

I do not know how to feel right now, well other than lost
Another clash of two people with so much to give, yet so much holding them back
I feel like I am against the wall and I feel like I am being crushed

Who is to blame? well that is not easy to say, could go each way
Two people and neither are perfect nor anywhere near that
But it was something that felt so strong, gave so much, and has taken it all away now

I feel numb at times and at others, I feel anger inside
Angry at them and angry at myself, so much lost to something uncontrolled
I feel like I have been here before, but this time it hurts more than I can imagine

I know in time she will find what she needs and although it is not me
I can only wish she gets everything that she deserves, the best life can give
if I retain anything from this, I hope I can keep alive that creative spark she gave me

My words are all I have left now and perhaps those will be enough to keep what was
To honor what had been and seek solace in that knowledge
When the night is at its darkest and I can only think of you