Tonight (A new day calls)

Tonight

Tonight I sit contemplating what has happened to reach this point in my life
Wondering if I ever had anything to offer to anyone or merely the sum of my parts
Taking some solace from the words of my friend as I realise I am not unique

Feeling so misunderstood and alone, but knowing that is all there is for me
The fight slowly dying inside of me as I cling to anything to feel alive
Plans to go out and feed the outside world when I should be sleeping

Finding those moments and replenishing the life energy
But only being able to keep going until I can push no harder
Would I even be able to understand this if I could have told my younger self

The morning comes once more and all the questions have been played out
Over and over in my head and I feel no closer to the release I need
No longer even having the strength to fight for the happiness I seek