Fire inside

Fire inside

There is a flame that burns inside of me, I do not understand it but I know it burns bright and powerful

That fire inside has also been fanned too hard, given too much or just had people try to extinguish it, this creates as much fear as not being able to control it

A fear that it will be blown out or damped with such scorn that I will lose that, I will lose what I feel keeps me moving forward, even when I would want the world to swallow me into the abyss and be done with me.

That balance I need to find, to be able to draw from that fire and let give strength to my body when it is weary

That balance will give inspiration to my mind when it feels like I can find nothing to give or find that thought to help me create and lift me from the shadows that often threaten to overwhelm the flickering flame.

it has been fanned by the power of another, she has been the air that gives power to the fire inside, it has burned inside of me and at times it has threatened to spread out of control and I could not help but fear it.

Now I find myself sitting basking in that fire I feel inside, afraid to reach out and touch it and not sure what I can do now.

Time will tell what will be and until then I can just keep trying.