I live a conservative lifestyle and I don’t want any children

No partying, drugs, smoking, alcohol, or permissive attitudes towards sex. That is just who I am and I like this part of myself. These decisions feel authentic to me. I also don’t want any children biological or adopted. I would choose adopted older children in my 50s and 60s if I was a person who knew how to take care of myself. But I can barely take care of myself as it is and need to learn how financially and psychologically. I mean since my surgery I have reduced fertility but still possible to get pregnant. If I ever got pregnant I swear I would induce a miscarriage or get early term abortion with the medical pill. If i couldn’t do that I would fucking kill myself. I don’t believe in later term surgical abortion and I would not carry a fetus who then becomes a baby to full term and give birth. So there is a very simple solution ( besides for cases of rape, sexual abuse, or incest) keep your damn legs closed. I’m celibate and abstinent which allow me to not worry about such things. Living a conservative lifestyle has kept me relatively healthy ( minus the cancer, mental illnesses, and high cholesterol.)