There is something wrong with me I'm sure of it.
I have deteriorated so badly from last year and I am certain there is something wrong with me. It's hard to put into words exactly but I am going to attempt to explain the best I am able.
I ended up hulking out one day at work and quitting which is not surprising because things were not going well with my dimwit boss as is. I could not take it anymore and just exploded and stormed out but not before going scorched earth on that man and place. I found another job and lasted maybe 4 months max because my tolerance for stress, mistreatment and incompetence has reached negative levels. Bad day at work? My brain immediately jumps to let's walk out. Being mistreated? Let them have it and quit. Surrounded by morons? Let them have it. Being treated like I'm a moron? Quit. I actually walked out on that job as well because I mentally collapsed from severe stress and said I was finished. I got a new job and have been here for 2 months as of today and am not feeling it at all. My manager treats me like a stupid kid and I am getting really sick of it. I could go to my actual boss however the boss and that manager are cool with one another that presents a problem. Others have had issues with this manager in the past and have spoken up so there is a paper trail but it all gets swept under the rug. I am not the only one being treated poorly however what's the point in fighting? Honestly if things get swept under the rug and if those two are good mates then why am I going to exert my energy trying to seek justice for myself?
I believe there is something wrong with me because my tolerance level is nonexistent anymore, I feel all the confidence I had has been beaten out of me which says a lot because I normally have a lot of fire and bravado but lately I question everything and have grown very sensitive. I am even questioning how in the bloody hell I've been able to hold down jobs for several years because I cannot seem to do that anymore. I do not want to become a notorious job hopper but I am heading down that path unfortunately. Where I am at currently there is a 6 month probationary period in which I must wait it out until I am able to transfer to another department. I searched high and low in the handbook about this particular subject and it seems I have to white knuckle it until the start of the new year. I honestly do not think I am going to be able to hold on until then.
I ended up hulking out one day at work and quitting which is not surprising because things were not going well with my dimwit boss as is. I could not take it anymore and just exploded and stormed out but not before going scorched earth on that man and place. I found another job and lasted maybe 4 months max because my tolerance for stress, mistreatment and incompetence has reached negative levels. Bad day at work? My brain immediately jumps to let's walk out. Being mistreated? Let them have it and quit. Surrounded by morons? Let them have it. Being treated like I'm a moron? Quit. I actually walked out on that job as well because I mentally collapsed from severe stress and said I was finished. I got a new job and have been here for 2 months as of today and am not feeling it at all. My manager treats me like a stupid kid and I am getting really sick of it. I could go to my actual boss however the boss and that manager are cool with one another that presents a problem. Others have had issues with this manager in the past and have spoken up so there is a paper trail but it all gets swept under the rug. I am not the only one being treated poorly however what's the point in fighting? Honestly if things get swept under the rug and if those two are good mates then why am I going to exert my energy trying to seek justice for myself?
I believe there is something wrong with me because my tolerance level is nonexistent anymore, I feel all the confidence I had has been beaten out of me which says a lot because I normally have a lot of fire and bravado but lately I question everything and have grown very sensitive. I am even questioning how in the bloody hell I've been able to hold down jobs for several years because I cannot seem to do that anymore. I do not want to become a notorious job hopper but I am heading down that path unfortunately. Where I am at currently there is a 6 month probationary period in which I must wait it out until I am able to transfer to another department. I searched high and low in the handbook about this particular subject and it seems I have to white knuckle it until the start of the new year. I honestly do not think I am going to be able to hold on until then.
26-30, M
