When is it my turn

I did the right thing I raise my boys the best way I knew how got a house lived there for 20 years lost it because I had no help and couldn't do it on my own was homeless for 4 months and got the house I'm in now it's impossible for me to do anything my budget is so tight that I can't breathe the wrong way I want to get out I want to do things I want to have a life but somehow it just seems like I don't get it