I Wish Things Were Simpler

I've had a lot of changes going on during covid. I found out recently one of my jobs isn't wanting me back next semester. That's a bit worrisome, but at the same time I kinda wanted a new job. I didn't like that one much. I could kinda see it coming, but it seems cruel during covid. It wasn't my fault the kid just didn't like me really. It happens and I started working with the other kids. I'm also moving, I've been excited about it, but also nervous due to change and it's a bit smaller. I think I need the change though. But, my partner of 4 years wanted to talk about his problems recently and he is awful at communicating. He started of saying something like he wanted to break up and it really tore me up and I'm still pretty uncertain about that situation. It was out of nowhere for me. He than started to say he really messed up putting it like that and it was a big mess. I trust that he didn't mean it, but you don't just bounce back from that easy. What he was trying to say was his problems first then say if we don't work on this it might not work with us. I say that sometimes and maybe it's not right to say. I've been trying to work on my communication better. Idk these are just some of my thoughts.