i'm so sorry. how old are you? just know things will get better, and the suffering will end. don't give up and i would not reccomend running away, it's really unsafe! try finding things you love in life and pursuing your passions and hobbies, as with school, don't stress too much, it will all be over soon
stay strong, you've got this! if you ever want to chat feel free to reach out, we can talk via any social media platform or whatsapp <3