Hi,
I’ve been feeling very mentally unwell lately and I could relate to your post. It’s hard to say the phrase “it’ll get better”, but it really does at some point. It’s hard. Life’s hard. But only after the loud storms do we get that amazing smell of fresh rain lingering in the air. I believe life to be like a rollercoaster and if you are having bad experiences, that means, that in the future there are equal amount of good, warm moments waiting. Crazy thoughts can be really hard to comprehend, but I know you can do it. If you managed it once, you can do it again; I believe in you buddy! I know my words may not mean much, but I truly hope the best for you. Drink water, eat veggies; sending you a sweet hug (if you’re not the hugging type - sending you a warm smile:))