We are very much responsible for our actions.

I'm guessing that because your profile is unavailable to me that you must be very young? There's plenty of time to find a circle of friends whom you do feel comfortable with. Without wanting to sound patronising many of us went through that sense of alienation in our teens and early 20s - and grew beyond (not out) of it.

Not meant to be alone, but made to live alone for commercial purpose by the divide and rule conspiracy. In fact nature never created us to be alone for ourselves, but created for each other. Reason why our eyes can see others fully, hands can hug embrace another, lips can kiss another, but we can do none of this to ourselves.

This forum is a good place to build your own group of people. You can disappear if things don't work out. Set up a new account and build another group.

You answered your own question .
Your afraid to get attached to someone

So