Could u be a paramedic?

I am pretty desensitized, so I briefly thought about taking up the sort of job that requires putting on a a hazmat suit and cleaning up corpses, but once I opened up to the spiritual side of life, I realized I would never be prepared to be constantly around that sort of heavy, dark energy most of the time. Ironically, when I was an atheist I felt very detached from people to the point where I could watch gore videos and it wouldn't bother me much. So I am glad that passed me by. Sometimes it's not good to be too desensitized.