I can't believe I am going to say this but I really wanna resign...

This will is stemming from the need to give up. The need to take a break that I'm scared won't help much. I'm waiting for the appointment with this therapist and I can only pray it will do it me good.

But honestly... this past couple days all I'm thinkikg of is to resign.

PS: technically it is not possible to resign. I need two more years before I complete the specialty. But there is a huge storm to weather (depression cycle of my bp2) and it frightens me.

You have no idea how much effort it is taking me to not just resign for good.