I'm honestly surprised I haven't tried to off myself considering I have a pretty terrible life as of late. Oh let me count the ways

Family lost our house a bit over a year ago that was a huge blow to us (more so my mom but me too)

I lost a beloved family pet of 17 years and I'm still not over it. I can't talk about him without crying still and it's been a year almost

I've been in serious financial stress ever since my job cut my hours back last fall and it's caused a lot of emotional and metal distress and physical stress. It's being giving me stomach problems and I've been suffering from terrible headaches as a result of the stress.

Being treated like crap at work the past few months really isn't helping either in fact I can't even tell you how many times I've gone home crying in my car and I actually have cried on the job as a result of how badly I feel or was made to feel.

Now I'm over here suffering from horrible anxiety over quitting my job and being afraid to start over again because in my head I'm always afraid I'm leaving one bad place for another horrible place even though I haven't even started yet but in my mind I'm already going to fail and be treated like crap.

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Picklebobble2 · 56-60, M

That's an awful lot of stress all at once one on top of another no wonder you feel the way you do.
Perfectly understandable.

Most jobs are exactly that. Just jobs.
The world of work is a screwed up place with unrealistic expectations and it's easy to feel overwhelmed especially if you're about to embark on something new.
But that's ok. Everybody feels like that !
So just take it one day at a time and your confidence will grow the more you understand how things work there.

So. From things you have no control over to things you CAN influence !
Always good to develop a routine.
Something reliable you created that you follow that makes sense to you.
Personally speaking, I find if I get up at the same time every day and get ready for the day I feel happier.
Make your bed. Shower; shave etc. eat a good breakfast then you're as best prepared as you can be for the day ahead.

Never forget your interests nor neglect them.
Some sort of physical exercise is also good for body and mind. Even if it's just a brisk walk around the block once a day.
You'll feel you're contributing to your health while also shifting any brain fog from things you feel you have no control over.
Always easy to shout support from the sidelines. And obviously I haven't been through what you have.
But you sound like you have the strength to stand up and fight.
Go to it !