I'm honestly surprised I haven't tried to off myself considering I have a pretty terrible life as of late. Oh let me count the ways

Family lost our house a bit over a year ago that was a huge blow to us (more so my mom but me too)

I lost a beloved family pet of 17 years and I'm still not over it. I can't talk about him without crying still and it's been a year almost

I've been in serious financial stress ever since my job cut my hours back last fall and it's caused a lot of emotional and metal distress and physical stress. It's being giving me stomach problems and I've been suffering from terrible headaches as a result of the stress.

Being treated like crap at work the past few months really isn't helping either in fact I can't even tell you how many times I've gone home crying in my car and I actually have cried on the job as a result of how badly I feel or was made to feel.

Now I'm over here suffering from horrible anxiety over quitting my job and being afraid to start over again because in my head I'm always afraid I'm leaving one bad place for another horrible place even though I haven't even started yet but in my mind I'm already going to fail and be treated like crap.

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being · 36-40, F

You need to take a little time off to relax. I understand there's a financial stress but the way you're heading you're setting yourself up for any serious health issue to arise and then things would be even harder to change.. so make an effort to begin by appreciating what you already have. The air that you breathe and your lungs, the water that you drink, drink it slowly.
You don't necessarily need to go away for vacation. You can begin adding vacation minutes within your day. A minute now. Ten minutes later. Pause. It's the only way to get out of autopilot. Strive to make healthier choices little by little. A healthier thought. A healthier snack, a little walk, a healthier way to unwind after work.

I'm so sorry for your pet. I can't imagine.. dwell into art..music, look at inspiring paintings, photos or movies.
And basically look at yourself in the mirror and say to yourself "I'm going to get us out of this." Ask yourself in the mirror for a solution. Maybe you'll come up with something you haven't imagined. It's only a mind trip, that you're going to find another crappy job. You need out. Affirm daily you're going to find a job suitable for you, where you can use all of your skills and talents.
I wish you luck..and strength ❤️

TempuraShrimp · 26-30, M

@being Oh god I've been either stress eating or not eating at all there's really no inbetween at the moment. There's been times I forget to drink water the entire day and just live off a glass of sweet tea.

I do have a new job lined up and I start it on the 22nd of this month. I don't know if it's considered PTSD or what but I'm literally afraid all jobs are going to be hell from now on. The job i had before I worked at my current one was terrible and this current one is terrible so I'm literally convinced all will be terrible

being · 36-40, F

@TempuraShrimp okay begin with little things like carrying a water bottle with you.
Prepare a small snack, no wonder your stomach is upset! You can do simple things like boiled egg with bread and a banana or apple.
Before you eat, every time, put on a song that you like and listen to it. It'll help the stress go a bit down and it'll allow your body to relax a little so to receive the food.
Aim for three basic things and commit to doing them daily.
For example it could be, drink a litre of water, have a nutritious meal, walk for ten minutes.
Or maybe, eat one fruit, do 20 pushups, take 10 deep breaths.
Choose your own things. Forget about the job. Focus on your well being. If you manage to lower your stress levels, you'll manage to gain some clarity and see your choices..

Kendoll33 · 31-35

@being Well said!