Stress, studying and parents
I’m .. I’m not “okay” . That’s how I feel at least. Sure, I’m young , I have friends and I ( most of the time ) enjoy my life ..
But I can’t express how much I hate being a disappointment to my parents , just the thought of it makes me want to breakdown and start crying my eyes out because I can’t bare the thought of being labeled as a failure . So when I get those exam papers back- or maybe just a measly spelling test that has zero effect on my education I ALWAYS want to see 100% or an A ( with the bare minimum of a B or 80% ) or maybe I get a horrible mark ,my only wish would be for my parents not to be ashamed or think that their daughters “dumb “ . And it’s not what they think but what I feel- because it makes my guts twist and my head dizzy and my mental state to go haywire .
My end of year exams are going to happen in a week and I’m spiralling into my feelings and thoughts of all the shit school does to you at such a young fckin age .
But I can’t express how much I hate being a disappointment to my parents , just the thought of it makes me want to breakdown and start crying my eyes out because I can’t bare the thought of being labeled as a failure . So when I get those exam papers back- or maybe just a measly spelling test that has zero effect on my education I ALWAYS want to see 100% or an A ( with the bare minimum of a B or 80% ) or maybe I get a horrible mark ,my only wish would be for my parents not to be ashamed or think that their daughters “dumb “ . And it’s not what they think but what I feel- because it makes my guts twist and my head dizzy and my mental state to go haywire .
My end of year exams are going to happen in a week and I’m spiralling into my feelings and thoughts of all the shit school does to you at such a young fckin age .
16-17, F
