I'm at a Point in Life

Where I'm just gonna say shit that I mean and not really care what the reactions are.

Life is like a rollercoaster when you think about it.
Twists and turns, hills, drop offs, and loop-de-loops.
And here we all are, trying to buckle ourselves in and act like we ain't phased by any of it.

But shit..., I don't care anymore if I'm trepidatious or scared of an answer or reply.
I don't care if the answers I get aren't what I hope for.
I don't care if I'm made fun of, or taken wrongly.

If I think someone's drop dead gorgeous..., I'll just say it and let them deal with their emotions about that.
If there's somebody out there that I wish I could know better, I'm going to talk to them.
If I'd really like to meet someone, I'm going to let them know that I'd like to meet them.

And therein, and through all of that, I won't place any pressure on anyone.
I won't try to make assumptions.
I won't force any answers or connections.

I'll just speak my mind and find acceptance in the way things play out.

I'm just done sitting here as if I'm on idle.
As if the things I see that I'd like to touch don't exist for me.

I love the world and almost all of the people within it.
I love living and i love life.

I want to love someone and feel them love me.

Wholly, truly, fully !!!

If its awkward, then it's awkward.
If someone is made uncomfortable, then maybe that's my fault and they can just blame me.
If they blame me, I can just accept that and move on.

I ain't a someone that's for everyone.
I'm not someone that falls apart at a simple "No thank you." -- "I can't do/be that.", or a "Sorry, you're just not my type."

I'm someone that simply just wishes good things for everybody.
Wants everyone in the world to have some peace and everyone to find their own happy place.

Including myself !

Honestly, I really am just a Good Guy, and I am fully willing and able to accept that I'll likely finish last.

But if Hope is a Rope, I'm grabbing that.
If wishes are fishes I'm grabbing my net.

If time is just a rhyme, and rhymes just take some time, Then I'm gonna be the poet and age like I were wine.

Anywho..........
I'm probably going to go write a rhyme about Lilac Bushes now...

(it's possible I spend way too much time thinking)

Peace Out,
Rob

DeadOrbit · 36-40

So up to this point you been holding your personality back? But it doesn't seem like you mean anyone any harm so i don't see the issue with being who you want to be.

HikingMan · 56-60, M

@DeadOrbit
Hmmm.., maybe not exactly as you see it.
But perhaps you're not very far off?

Life really is like a rollercoaster, and we all have our ups and downs, I think.

But who am I to assume anything, and maybe I have it all typed out wrong from the start?

All I know is that life is very much worth living outside a shell we thought might protect us.

Peace to you, NotQuiteDeadOrbit.

I don't take messages from the grave and you can't send them from there either.

Be well
Live happy
Keep trying

Thanks for the reply. You have no idea how much I appreciate it.

DeadOrbit · 36-40

@HikingMan I am asking I am not assuming so if I am wrong I don't mean anything by it. This post to me seem like it had more substance to it than most post here so I wanted to be sure and try to understand what you was saying better. I agree that life is better to be lived outside the shell.