what will i do if i end up alone

[c=BF0080][i]my mum and dad are elderly now, i love and adore them so very much, especially my mother, ive always been close to her, she is a special person...i've relied on my mum and dad all my life, never cut the apron strings....but they are two elderly now.....i haven't seen my mum since last xmas because she told me she is taking life easy now, she said she will be down to see me again, but has not committed to when... same with my dad....they are separated for over 30 years now..


i live alone in a little one bedroom dark decrepit flat, i have no relationships or support system apart from my parents...i have had mental problems all my adult life, i'm 45 now.........what will i do when my parents are no longer here and i end up alone? i couldn't bare the agony of that existence...i truly believe i would kill myself....as i'd be completely isolated and on my own.

and who could live like that? i couldn't bare life without my beloved mum and dad....can anyone help?[/i][/c]