Holding me back
I just read and shared a Facebook post about how procrastination, contrary to popular belief, is not because of laziness, it’s apparently because the procrastinator associates unusually strongly his performance with his self worth, which leads to a major fear of failure or criticism. All my life I’ve struggled with completing tasks on time, and I think it’s mostly because it takes me so long to convince myself to start them, even the most simple and mundane tasks like taking a shower or eating dinner. By the way, it doesn’t make sense to me that I’m afraid of failing at taking a shower, can anyone explain that to me?
Anyway, this has been a crippling problem all my life. I believe it’s the main reason that, in spite of having a bachelors degree, I’m making less than $15 an hour doing a job I could have been hired for if I’d dropped out of high school. It’s most likely the reason I am frequently just a little bit late for work. It’s probably the reason I sometimes don’t shower on the weekends and don’t often groom myself very well. I suspect that the fact that I’ve never had a romantic relationship before is even in some way connected to it. Even if I could find a romantic partner, and even though I think I want to have a child or two, I highly doubt I would be able to take care of a child because I’m not even doing a good job of taking care of myself.
Does anyone know what I can do to fix my procrastination problem? Or where I might go to find some more help or information? I suspect there are people out there who know how to help me, but they probably all live in big cities in blue states hundreds of miles away from where I live, and it probably costs an arm and a leg plus travel time and expense to go see them.
If anyone knows anything that might help, please comment, I’m desperate!
Anyway, this has been a crippling problem all my life. I believe it’s the main reason that, in spite of having a bachelors degree, I’m making less than $15 an hour doing a job I could have been hired for if I’d dropped out of high school. It’s most likely the reason I am frequently just a little bit late for work. It’s probably the reason I sometimes don’t shower on the weekends and don’t often groom myself very well. I suspect that the fact that I’ve never had a romantic relationship before is even in some way connected to it. Even if I could find a romantic partner, and even though I think I want to have a child or two, I highly doubt I would be able to take care of a child because I’m not even doing a good job of taking care of myself.
Does anyone know what I can do to fix my procrastination problem? Or where I might go to find some more help or information? I suspect there are people out there who know how to help me, but they probably all live in big cities in blue states hundreds of miles away from where I live, and it probably costs an arm and a leg plus travel time and expense to go see them.
If anyone knows anything that might help, please comment, I’m desperate!
