I Am Not Where I Wanted to Be At This Age

I think at a certain point in most of all our lives we all mostly have felt that way. I know I do. My life was nerve ideal but I always thought that with my capabilities my life would be smooth sailing with a bit of smart but hard work. Funny how life has a way of teaching you things and no better way than hands on. Haha. I used to think a lot of things, basically had my life planned out. Then life came along with things no one could prepare me for and knock me right off my pedestal. It hurt, and I head climb up only to fall down many times to learn that no mmatter what happens just to be happy and grateful because life don't alwaysgo as planned so it's better not to have too much of a tight schedule and instead trust and enjoy the ride. Life is crazy and unexpected but also amazingly beautiful. No, Im not where I thought I would be right now or where I would want to but I have no regrets. If anything I learned to cut my self some slack and try looking at things at a different perspective because with all my troubles I could list on and on, I know there's someone somewhere who has it worse. I just try to be the best me I can be day by day. That doesn't mean I don't have days when I beat myself up, there's no one harder on me than me but that doesn't deter me from living the life I've been given thus far the best i can for those who wish that had my troubles.

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SW-User Best Comment

I understand what you're saying...but... you're 26-30 years old. I'm 58. I know it's hard to accept - but you really do have time to get where you want to go. I've had a few left and right turns myself. I'm on my second career... numerous internal changes. I divorced and re-married, and am very blessed.
Put your faith in God, let Him direct you - but do get to work in the direction you want to go.

Your generation has certainly gone through a disorienting time. But filter out the noise, and get your own North Star

Seven2123 · 31-35, F

@SW-User Thank you for the precious jewels of wisdom! A lot has changed since I wrote that post. And to my surprise, life didn't in fact stop for me at 24. In fact, now at 30, I feel like the clock has reset. Believe it or not, 30 feels a lot like 20 but, better this time around. One of the things I've learned since then is, there will be plenty of rises and falls in life. What goes around, comes around, and the tables will always turn eventually. Most importantly, there will Always be a light at the end of the tunnel, if I choose to see it that way. If not, I can Always choose to Be the Light. God has been good to me, always has. I'm grateful. 30 looks good. Thank you for your comment! ☺️

SW-User

@Seven2123 I can't tell you how happy I am to hear that.

I had a terrible reverse in my career at age 27. I promised myself I would turn it around, but I would open myself to new opportunities, and I put it in God's hands. He gave me a chance - and I reversed that situation... and returned to my chosen profession.

But of course, that's just one issue... there are many other ways you can turn left or right as life goes on.

Seven2123 · 31-35, F

@SW-User We do all we can then put it in God's hand. So true. I like to think of life in many analogies. One of them, is thinking of it as a gave. There are levels, many times we find ourselves, repeating as necessary, cause we only get what we can handle...I like to believe that the only real way to lose in the game of life is if you stop playing.

I'm glad to hear as well, that you're doing better!

SW-User

@Seven2123 Yes.. I was 34 when I turned that (bad) situation around. That said... of course there have been other twists and turns, some of them not what I wanted. But all remains well.

And yes... the way to lose is to give up trying. Our society is full of people who've done that, but the worse part about that, is as a society we've begun to enable that... and enable them in their victimhood.

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@Seven2123 I sent an IM. Maybe you don't IM, just checking.

Seven2123 · 31-35, F

@SW-User I agree, there needs to be some personal accountability for growth to take place. I don't think very many people know or understands what it means to "sit with themselves". There's a saying, you may not be responsible for your traumas but, you're responsive for your own healing.

I think society as a whole has become complacent and consumed with this wounded mindset.