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Nostalgia
by Erica Winter
I remember the smell of summer rain
and how thunderstorms used to help me sleep when I was young.
I remember St. Patrick's Day
and how the grass always seemed more green than any other day of the year.
I look at pictures of my family when I was eight
and it's a harsh truth to admit
that I don't remember much about my parents being together.
I remember having a sense of wonder in my childhood
that now I see was so precious and rare.
If we could all have that astonishment at the little things in life as adults
the world would be a much happier place.
Colors are no longer as vibrant.
I've started to look into the darkest corners of my mind
and the world to find new miracles and beautiful tragedies.
Christmas used to mean love, family and comfort.
Sleeping underneath the tree, the smell of pine needles would lull me.
Nowadays, gin is as close as I get from January to November.
With each sip, it's the bitter taste of Christmases past
and the ripe, sweet smell of nostalgia.
People walk into my life through many doors and exit unexpectedly as well.
I'm in a forest, it all looks the same.
I turn at every tree with moss
Desperately searching for something new
and the hardest part is always searching
Never knowing which path leads to demise.
The friends that I keep are the ones I hold close
Are the good ones that stick through the depths of it all.
I remember the smell of my mother's perfume
Yet the sound of her voice becomes more distant with each passing month and year.
Saturday morning cartoons used to be enough.
This wine is my blood and my blood has boiled out.
How to define pain and how to escape the wreckage?
I used to believe that time heals but the opposite has proven itself to be true.
The more details become unclear and fuzzy,
the sharper the knife becomes.
The more it hurts with passing days.
I once heard that mourning is like being inside of a snow globe with flurries with slick, stealthy blades that sometimes float by and sometimes cut deep with no warning.
Time sharpens the daggers and that is a truth that is time(less).
Trust meant the world and gullibility was not a death sentence.
As we age, we find new ways to cope. We get by.
My dreams have been vivid and coated in a melancholy feeling
that I can't break no matter how hard I try.
Woken up by the drunken calls of lush fools in the grass outside of my window,
I close my eyes and try to slip back into sleep.
Meeting failure, the clock taunts by the second
Synced with the laughter of the people outside, surrounded by friends.
Some say the glass is half full, some half empty.
I say the glass is being poured to the brim, on tap.
I take comfort in the solitude I used to curse in the early hours when slumber never came.
by Erica Winter
I remember the smell of summer rain
and how thunderstorms used to help me sleep when I was young.
I remember St. Patrick's Day
and how the grass always seemed more green than any other day of the year.
I look at pictures of my family when I was eight
and it's a harsh truth to admit
that I don't remember much about my parents being together.
I remember having a sense of wonder in my childhood
that now I see was so precious and rare.
If we could all have that astonishment at the little things in life as adults
the world would be a much happier place.
Colors are no longer as vibrant.
I've started to look into the darkest corners of my mind
and the world to find new miracles and beautiful tragedies.
Christmas used to mean love, family and comfort.
Sleeping underneath the tree, the smell of pine needles would lull me.
Nowadays, gin is as close as I get from January to November.
With each sip, it's the bitter taste of Christmases past
and the ripe, sweet smell of nostalgia.
People walk into my life through many doors and exit unexpectedly as well.
I'm in a forest, it all looks the same.
I turn at every tree with moss
Desperately searching for something new
and the hardest part is always searching
Never knowing which path leads to demise.
The friends that I keep are the ones I hold close
Are the good ones that stick through the depths of it all.
I remember the smell of my mother's perfume
Yet the sound of her voice becomes more distant with each passing month and year.
Saturday morning cartoons used to be enough.
This wine is my blood and my blood has boiled out.
How to define pain and how to escape the wreckage?
I used to believe that time heals but the opposite has proven itself to be true.
The more details become unclear and fuzzy,
the sharper the knife becomes.
The more it hurts with passing days.
I once heard that mourning is like being inside of a snow globe with flurries with slick, stealthy blades that sometimes float by and sometimes cut deep with no warning.
Time sharpens the daggers and that is a truth that is time(less).
Trust meant the world and gullibility was not a death sentence.
As we age, we find new ways to cope. We get by.
My dreams have been vivid and coated in a melancholy feeling
that I can't break no matter how hard I try.
Woken up by the drunken calls of lush fools in the grass outside of my window,
I close my eyes and try to slip back into sleep.
Meeting failure, the clock taunts by the second
Synced with the laughter of the people outside, surrounded by friends.
Some say the glass is half full, some half empty.
I say the glass is being poured to the brim, on tap.
I take comfort in the solitude I used to curse in the early hours when slumber never came.
