Ever since you left the city
In 2013, ever since you left to go and live in Vancouver. I always missed you and wishing you well. You are intelligent, energetic, charismatic, wonderful, everything. Never knew someone amazing as you would be local, I remember the day you mentioned leaving the city. I begged you to stay, because I found so much of myself within you, but I know that I was holding back on your happiness. And if I truly loved you, I'd accept and let you go.
I was not in a good point in my life because of my favorite grandma passing away and my immaturity to handle a real relationship. Nowadays, dating these guys after you, just does not compare. I loved the rock/punk bands you introduced me to, your weeby taste in games/anime, and I missed the way you wrapped your arms around me as if "I belonged to you.' Dating you was a dream come true.
The way you tried your best to make the most of everything, despite the abuse from divorced parents. It was admirable. You confidently grooved in the car with your hoodie over your head and danced like a loser. You being yourself and not having to worry about anyone judging, I wish I had that within me. You would see me in the hallways and told me "Everytime I see you in the hallways. Your head is always down. Don't ever look down, look up so others can see your face." I practiced looking up more..
I remembered hearing about our favorite Band releasing their first limited edition CD, I had to get it because your favorite acoustic song was on there. And giving it to you meant the world to me. I had tears in my eyes that day, when I gave it to you, because I knew we weren't the same and were on limited time.
I blame you because I still eat chicken teriyaki rolls til this day, for they are your favorite sushi roll. I love the way we passionately made love. And you showed me the games that you played. You thought about me from time to time, visited and left. It was the same dreadful feeling of losing you all over again. I still have that Christmas card of you mentioning that you wanted "a Future with me, let's make it happen." You made it look that loving me was easy and you had no problems expressing it.
Now I see you are with another beautiful woman, married, and soon to be a father with your first baby on the way. I am so proud of you and your growth as a person. She is so incredibly lucky to have you in her life. And I wish to have that kind of love that we shared. Someday. Or it will be different on it's own. ❤️
Thank you C, forooking out for me and others, you being a leader and just being the best version of yourself to provide. You are always someone special to me.
I was not in a good point in my life because of my favorite grandma passing away and my immaturity to handle a real relationship. Nowadays, dating these guys after you, just does not compare. I loved the rock/punk bands you introduced me to, your weeby taste in games/anime, and I missed the way you wrapped your arms around me as if "I belonged to you.' Dating you was a dream come true.
The way you tried your best to make the most of everything, despite the abuse from divorced parents. It was admirable. You confidently grooved in the car with your hoodie over your head and danced like a loser. You being yourself and not having to worry about anyone judging, I wish I had that within me. You would see me in the hallways and told me "Everytime I see you in the hallways. Your head is always down. Don't ever look down, look up so others can see your face." I practiced looking up more..
I remembered hearing about our favorite Band releasing their first limited edition CD, I had to get it because your favorite acoustic song was on there. And giving it to you meant the world to me. I had tears in my eyes that day, when I gave it to you, because I knew we weren't the same and were on limited time.
I blame you because I still eat chicken teriyaki rolls til this day, for they are your favorite sushi roll. I love the way we passionately made love. And you showed me the games that you played. You thought about me from time to time, visited and left. It was the same dreadful feeling of losing you all over again. I still have that Christmas card of you mentioning that you wanted "a Future with me, let's make it happen." You made it look that loving me was easy and you had no problems expressing it.
Now I see you are with another beautiful woman, married, and soon to be a father with your first baby on the way. I am so proud of you and your growth as a person. She is so incredibly lucky to have you in her life. And I wish to have that kind of love that we shared. Someday. Or it will be different on it's own. ❤️
Thank you C, forooking out for me and others, you being a leader and just being the best version of yourself to provide. You are always someone special to me.
