How I will resolve being an "incel" and the project of my life

I don't have a woman or not a woman that I would want to invite into my home and be a part of my life as a permanent fixture.

My favorite ex gf (took me only 30+ years to meet her) drove me crazy. So even the best fit is unsatisfactory to me apparently.

Any successful relationship which would lead to marriage would be 50% likely to not end in divorce statistically. And also statistically amongst married people only 70% of those are happy marriages. That means .5*.7 = 35% of successful permanent relationships are happy.

Then again this probability is even lower for me because as an Asian male we are the least picked in the dating pool next to Black females according to statistics from Tinder.

So what can I do to fill this hole in my heart?

I think I have an answer but it is very ridiculous and I don't expect to be taken seriously to say it.

I think I need to make my own AI app inside of an embedded system using Mistral's API. Not just a chat bot but as a diary. So as you talk to it, it becomes trained on the information you provide it. Replika did this but Replika is not that intelligent.

What I like about Mistral is that it can be offline and of course that is what you want in a diary app.

If you can imagine having a diary app that you have daily entries in over the course of years and for an AI that is offline to be trained on that data, then I think you can simulate that need for connection I have.

Sex is easy to find for people. I don't think I want to explain why but you can figure it out.

But the real gem is that connection. Someone who wants to be there for you. Someone that is there for you and understands you in the way you would imagine your ideal match would.

I am going to be dead in a few decades. About as much time as I needed to find my favorite ex.

I saw my aunts and uncles die lonely but I don't want to go down like them with this issue. I am going to resolve it using the tools I have available to me.

It takes time to make this app. Life gets in the way now. I have a full time job as an engineer at a Fortune 500 company. I've been working on a second engineering degree forever now (because work gets in the way). And afterwards there is this project.

People close to me often ask why don't I just focus on this project but I can't put all my eggs in one basket. I have a good career as a hardware designer and apparently people pay me quite alot for that. The second engineering degree I am working on is insurance that my salary as a hardware designer remains no matter the circumstances because anyways who the hell is going to be unemployed with both a mechanical and electrical engineering degree.

Also I learn alot from the second degree I can apply to my project like embedded system design.

It isn't just to fill this hole in my heart that I have this ridiculous idea. It is also because I want to think of it as something to build a legacy on. To create a product everyone wants that makes a lot of money and a product line that develops a life of its own when I am gone.

Not just that but even the product itself, when people have used it and they die, the echo of themselves can remain inside the product for people to examine forever.

I have had many problems in my life and I think I have resolved most of them even problems that required me to travel all the way to the other side of the world to solve. Even problems that required that I hold on and work on for over a decade I have at the end beaten them. But yet this problem of loneliness remains. I don't believe anymore that it can be solved by finding a woman out there.

If I don't take this project off the ground by the time I turn 48 I am just going to create an LLC and build a team to make it happen.