Communication doesn't always help, sometimes it's just pointless
The last thing I said was that it's not going to work because of the distance, and while it's true that the distance made it very hard, that wasn't the full truth, not even close.
It has been years and I still remember the day it ended in my head without having to involve you in the decision. I remember it like it was yesterday! I was cooking dinner and doing my best to make it as fancy as possible for you, and while looking at you and trying to start a conversation as you're sitting on the dining table looking at your phone, my eyes accidentally spotted it, I noticed you were scrolling bumble. You panicked and closed it and I acted as if I didn't see this, perhaps because regardless of how clear it was, I still couldn't comprehend what just happened and it's not my job to blame or to guilt trip you and I know you're sensitive and wouldn't take it well, so I never found any point in bringing it up or any possibility of having a meaningful conversation about it that can somehow magically fix it with communication or unfold that it was just some sort of misunderstanding.
I'm always happy to go even longer distances for love, as long as you're taking it seriously too. I can communicate how I feel, and what I think about things, but if I have to ask you to love me, that's not communication, that's humiliation.
Umm, if anyone actually read this, thank you for reading and please don't mind my use of the second person pronoun. I just feel like writing such things that I never got to talk about to anybody.
It has been years and I still remember the day it ended in my head without having to involve you in the decision. I remember it like it was yesterday! I was cooking dinner and doing my best to make it as fancy as possible for you, and while looking at you and trying to start a conversation as you're sitting on the dining table looking at your phone, my eyes accidentally spotted it, I noticed you were scrolling bumble. You panicked and closed it and I acted as if I didn't see this, perhaps because regardless of how clear it was, I still couldn't comprehend what just happened and it's not my job to blame or to guilt trip you and I know you're sensitive and wouldn't take it well, so I never found any point in bringing it up or any possibility of having a meaningful conversation about it that can somehow magically fix it with communication or unfold that it was just some sort of misunderstanding.
I'm always happy to go even longer distances for love, as long as you're taking it seriously too. I can communicate how I feel, and what I think about things, but if I have to ask you to love me, that's not communication, that's humiliation.
Umm, if anyone actually read this, thank you for reading and please don't mind my use of the second person pronoun. I just feel like writing such things that I never got to talk about to anybody.
