I am not what happened to me.
So many heartbreaking experiences yet I have always known that deep down inside of me is where truth has always been , will always stay because whatever happens around me Truth always prevails
So here I am drinking my morning tea and reflecting on how things were this time last year and thereafter for the remaining year of what it was
A time when my personal boundaries were crossed … disrespect was the norm and lies proceeded to be unhinged in its insidious way that only the person who created them should have and will be forever responsible for
“Get the fuq out of my house” are the words I used to the narcissist who continually tried to bring me down until they actually succeeded and even after I was on the floor they stepped over me before hopping and skipping off into the sunset in search of others who validated them and enabled their behaviour … carrying on living their lives freely while I had to rebuild myself from whatever was left.
A living nightmare on top of trying to get through ptsd
It was against anything rationale … calm … peaceful … sane.
It was madness because the narcissist had won … if only for a little while.
A time I want to forget of only to remember to move forward in healthy ways
I don’t regret showing them the door - I didn’t within seconds of doing it either because by then my conscience was more fine about it for if I hadn’t then i would have become their enabler and that I have never nor will ever do re toxic mentality - if I had enabled it then my contribution to society would be nothing. In other words the person who hurt me would then continue to hurt others thinking I was ok with it but now they will always know that I never was or will be.
The tea I am having is a warm comfort , the warmth in my home … the view from my window … it’s beautiful
Here I am with my thoughts
But it’s different this time
So very different
Good morning 🌅 😌 ♥ ☕
So here I am drinking my morning tea and reflecting on how things were this time last year and thereafter for the remaining year of what it was
A time when my personal boundaries were crossed … disrespect was the norm and lies proceeded to be unhinged in its insidious way that only the person who created them should have and will be forever responsible for
“Get the fuq out of my house” are the words I used to the narcissist who continually tried to bring me down until they actually succeeded and even after I was on the floor they stepped over me before hopping and skipping off into the sunset in search of others who validated them and enabled their behaviour … carrying on living their lives freely while I had to rebuild myself from whatever was left.
A living nightmare on top of trying to get through ptsd
It was against anything rationale … calm … peaceful … sane.
It was madness because the narcissist had won … if only for a little while.
A time I want to forget of only to remember to move forward in healthy ways
I don’t regret showing them the door - I didn’t within seconds of doing it either because by then my conscience was more fine about it for if I hadn’t then i would have become their enabler and that I have never nor will ever do re toxic mentality - if I had enabled it then my contribution to society would be nothing. In other words the person who hurt me would then continue to hurt others thinking I was ok with it but now they will always know that I never was or will be.
The tea I am having is a warm comfort , the warmth in my home … the view from my window … it’s beautiful
Here I am with my thoughts
But it’s different this time
So very different
Good morning 🌅 😌 ♥ ☕
