Weight loss , meh
Losing weight isn’t something to grieve it’s something I needed to do , this sounds bizarre .. it’s gonna sound even more freaky but there was a time when I felt like being physically pretty was so f^^king wrong
Like I had no right to be
Because I was resented and treated badly when I was so foolishly or perhaps wisely depending on how you see it I let myself go
I started gaining weight , content in the feelings that I wouldn’t be bothered. I wouldn’t have to take hate from those who felt insecure around me from their own self esteem issues
I figured I may as well just be chub chick with a bubbly personality
Ugh what a loser I was for being so hard on myself from the pain i experienced from others
I was so wrong
There’s nothing wrong with being physically fit and ~ or pretty
There’s nothing wrong with being a big girl either
What matters is what we carry inside of us and yes I was my own worst enemy from my own dumb insecurities
That was then ~ but this is now
And today I have finally found my way
[media=https://youtu.be/g2gy1Evb1Kg]
People can be cruel but that’s who they are not who I should become
We are all guilty of self destruction in some ways , then some of us wake up to how we can change and with that we help others … right ?
I guess deep down I didn’t mind being a fat cat ( makes fun of myself )
Like I had no right to be
Because I was resented and treated badly when I was so foolishly or perhaps wisely depending on how you see it I let myself go
I started gaining weight , content in the feelings that I wouldn’t be bothered. I wouldn’t have to take hate from those who felt insecure around me from their own self esteem issues
I figured I may as well just be chub chick with a bubbly personality
Ugh what a loser I was for being so hard on myself from the pain i experienced from others
I was so wrong
There’s nothing wrong with being physically fit and ~ or pretty
There’s nothing wrong with being a big girl either
What matters is what we carry inside of us and yes I was my own worst enemy from my own dumb insecurities
That was then ~ but this is now
And today I have finally found my way
[media=https://youtu.be/g2gy1Evb1Kg]
People can be cruel but that’s who they are not who I should become
We are all guilty of self destruction in some ways , then some of us wake up to how we can change and with that we help others … right ?
I guess deep down I didn’t mind being a fat cat ( makes fun of myself )
🦋