Still Stuck

Hi Everyone,. I'm Still VERY Much Stuck In Between Two Worlds The Supposedly Straight Dominant Alpha Hyper Masculine Male and The Big Beautiful and Sexy BBW. It's A Lonely Existence Not Being Able To Be The "Other Me"..The Depression Gets Unbearable At Times,But, I Move On Wanting and Pretending ALL Is Well.
I Only Wish That I Had An Outlet Outside Of The Thoughts and Feelings Buried Waaaay Deep Down Inside and The Internet.