I Have a Confession

I sinned today, it was the same sin I sinned 4 years ago, and I am so sad...It was merely a sinful fantasy, that I've tried to make beautiful, but it was still a sin...I know that the blood of the lamb has washed this sin away, and for that I am grateful.....I know that I am forgiven, it's just that I really want to love in purity, and just really care about my brothers and sisters in Christ...It's just that I struggle with this one sin from time to time, and then I feel the spirit of Jezebel creeping in....Even to this day I fight spiritual warfare, when the precious spirit of life guides me into love and purity, it's what I really want, but here I go and sin, because it feels good and is beautiful to me, but I know that I am not right with God when I do it......So thanks to that posters post below I really needed to read that, I do trust that once again I am forgiven in the blood of Christ....But my deepest wish is that I never do it ever again...