I Have a Confession
I never thought I’d be one to compare myself but here I am, 1 day before 2020. God help me so I can make it and create a better life for myself.
I actively search out people I admire on social media. Colleagues, past colleagues, old friends and so on. Wondering what went wrong, admiring all the cool things they are up to. How successful they have become and so on. I search, I scroll, I message and so on. I wonder why all these people don’t keep in touch with me. Why our journeys never continued and I wonder what my life holds. I think I might come of social media. No instagram. No LinkedIn. No nothing. Work on myself and build up relationships. Create a life worth living.
My life is so boring. I am working on making it better but you never know with these things. I have big dreams for myself. I just don’t know how to keep on making them happen when my efforts don’t manifest so easily. So I look at other people’s lives and compare. Live through them a little. Admire them and wonder if anyone admires me.
Anyway...
I actively search out people I admire on social media. Colleagues, past colleagues, old friends and so on. Wondering what went wrong, admiring all the cool things they are up to. How successful they have become and so on. I search, I scroll, I message and so on. I wonder why all these people don’t keep in touch with me. Why our journeys never continued and I wonder what my life holds. I think I might come of social media. No instagram. No LinkedIn. No nothing. Work on myself and build up relationships. Create a life worth living.
My life is so boring. I am working on making it better but you never know with these things. I have big dreams for myself. I just don’t know how to keep on making them happen when my efforts don’t manifest so easily. So I look at other people’s lives and compare. Live through them a little. Admire them and wonder if anyone admires me.
Anyway...
31-35, F
