I Have a Confession

@SW-User I don't expect the help to find me but I am already seeing a doctor because of stomach pain (my GP even told me I might have some gallstones because I'm clearly anxious) but it's hard. I barely get up in the morning yet if I don't do certain things or chores no one else will. And I have other responsibilities too. It's exhausting and I'm sick of being the responsible one...

@Melpomene

True sometimes we got no choice but to carry on and stay 💪 or things just won't get done.

It's true anxiety can manifest as physical symptoms, if you get quiet moments try and analyse what causes your anxieties, situations, environments etc - easier said than done i know.

Even if you can't avoid the causes, being concious of them will help shrink the trigger effect, and how you recieve and process it.

@SW-User Oh, I already did that...years ago. The thing is, it will surely disrupt my family and I've been avoiding it fearing that it might break us. I was handling it quite well until I got this new type of stress and everything just went downhill. I'm afraid I cannot always control my emotions and that having a panic attack at a bad time might cause me to get medications before even consulting a psychiatrist.

@Melpomene you said something good there, that you want to talk to a psychiatrist before considering medication, seems to me that pills are often used before other options have even been discussed, and i think they just sedate the problem rather than address it.

It's a bit naughty but in a situation like this i might mislead my doctor and maybe elaborate on my symptoms to get him to refer me sooner, can always claim the gp misunderstood the reason for referral, but at that point at least i'd be sitting in front of who i needed to.

@SW-User Oh I know medication is needed but I'd like to talk and explain the situation before he prescribes me meds. Last time (years ago), I was stalling and going around in circles so I'd get the therapy or be let go without saying the reason. I had to change a couple of medicines and do a bunch of tests so they'd know which meds are the right ones but then they got too close to discovering what it was and I had to leave. I know it was the right thing to do at the moment but maybe asking for help a year or two earlier would be a better solution.
I did get a panic attack on my last appointment and I think I'll be sent to visit a psychiatrist from now on...but I still hope that even with my hollow description and misleading they figure out which meds I need. I can't say the real reason for all of this happening, at least not in the next 4-5 months but I still need help.