my first wife died 15 years ago. Every day I worry that I was not a good enough husband. All of our friends who knew us both tell me I was but only she knows and I never will
I have already commented separately on your story with empathy... but you have ignored it..
Oh well.. we tried to be friends and make you feel better.. but it seems that unfortunately we have different mental models..
Sorry for this.
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@redredred I'm sorry but grief is part of life, and we all deal with it differently, but you don't get to be condescending. Want my memory of watching my father pulled up police divers when he drowned? So yes I'm sensitive of the issue, but can also see where grief makes one act out in a way they don't want.
Try not to be so hard on yourself, love. Our brains automatically go to worries such as this because they have no end... it can run on an endlessloop forever. This is no good for your mental state. Imagine her in your mind's eye telling you how good of a husband she thought you were and how she is so grateful to have had you. Make the image real. Feel her there with you. Hear her saying the words. This will help. Hang in there. <3
I am sure you were the best you could be and that is good enough...
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There’s no set time limit when it comes to grieving. You don’t just move on when you genuinely care and love someone with all of your heart. I’m sure you did the best you could for your wife , we can’t always predict when someone will die and it’s not always anyone’s fault. You should never blame yourself.
I'm so sorry.😔💙 She must have loved you very much or she wouldn't have stayed with you so long. ♥️ I think we will see our loved ones again and then you'll know for sure that she always thought you were.👫💕💜