I Have a Confession

As long as I can remember , I have taken pride in being able to control my emotions.
Every time I had to face a dark or blue emotion , I sat it on the side of my mind and built a wall in front of it .
Colored the wall with happy colors and drew picture of all that I was thankful for ,
all that I loved ,
all who needed me ...
and then I moved on .
These days, looking as happy and collected as I can ,
I find myself stuck ,
inside my own mind .
Not much room to wiggle ...
I’m scared ...