I Have a Confession
My Sunday Confession
😌Guess who fell in love ?
Well this one 😃 definitely did. So some two years back I met this girl. Wow she was so beautiful. I used to get this feeling when she's near me. I will feel really really small. It's like she's someone great and I used to think, 'what are the chances of me having someone like her'. Well anyway after that uneasy feelings I will then feel brave and happy that I saw her.
She will talk to me and smile and I'll be like, 'no way'. 🙄Back then I was very shy( I think dumb and stupid ). I just stood there frozen, talking to myself, ' is this happening for real ? '. Well I didn't know what to say back to her then. She caught me by surprise. Lol, things like that rarely happens to me. I means girls talking to me. 😲Come on !
😑So I do this part time job every early morning, daily. I get to pass by her house every day. But then something had to happen to me and I have to move somewhere.😞
Well last year I got back and another chance to see her again. It's been quite some time since I last saw her. During those gap years, I used to think about her, daily. Before going to sleep or in the morning and sad days. Like what she's doing now. And sometimes I dream about her in my sleep. Something strange about those dreams. Like in every one of those dreams about her I never once saw her(like her face). In those dreams I'll be passing her house and sometimes even entering her house hoping to see her but, no one will be there. And I'll wake up feeling very sad. After those dreams I'll think , ' what if the next time I see her, she already have someone, what if I'm too late '. 😔Yea thinking stuff like that really scares me.
There's something very different about her. 😌Well she got my attention that's for sure as the first time I saw her, I fell in love. She have this looks and she'll always smile at me whenever I meet her. Now that's something special. Won't you agree !
😲So last year (2017) I brought a gift to present her. And as of still now I still haven't give to her yet. 😟Ah ya yah....you must be wondering what the hell are you still waiting for ?
Well the thing is, due to exams and Christmas seasons I didn't get the chance. I Still get to pass by her house but nowadays I don't see her often. Maybe she's studying somewhere, training somewhere, busy or maybe waking up late. Who knows?
This year (2018) I recently brought another gift again. So come April and I'll be ready. Maybe this time carry the gifts with me every morning . And if I see her, I'll reach out my hand, drop the gift and run like hell (haha😄kidding).
Well since I have come this far, let me continue my story.
😩Once I saw her on the road as I was coming home. She was coming from opposite direction. I think she and her sister were grocery shopping. They went to a vegetables stall So I went across the road to a butcher shop trying to buy some meat. And as they were coming out, I came out too. 😤Suddenly I realize I'm on the wrong side of the road. But I still thought I'll get a chance to see her eye to eye. All of the sudden a vehicle pass through between us and at that moment I was thinking like, 'this just had to happen'. Well anyway I don't think she saw me that day. Right after that I felt ashamed thinking what am I doing and I went home .
Back in 2015, 2016 and 17, Me and and a good friend of mine we used to shares stories of our secret admirers. We often visit each other and only talks about that besides aim in life. I used to tell him, today I saw the girl I like. And he'll be like Oh' and reply back saying well I'm texting with mine right now.
Jeez😤Yup, compare to others I'm still ground zero.
In fact, the sad thing is I still don't know her name yet. I just wish I have more opportunity to meet and know her more.
Well that'll be all for now.
I know I'm not perfect. Over these recent years I have been battling with my personal demons. Trying to be a good human and such. And I don't think I'm doing a pretty good job at that. Well anyway I gonna keep my thumps up, pad myself on the shoulder and do it with a smile. 🙂
😌Guess who fell in love ?
Well this one 😃 definitely did. So some two years back I met this girl. Wow she was so beautiful. I used to get this feeling when she's near me. I will feel really really small. It's like she's someone great and I used to think, 'what are the chances of me having someone like her'. Well anyway after that uneasy feelings I will then feel brave and happy that I saw her.
She will talk to me and smile and I'll be like, 'no way'. 🙄Back then I was very shy( I think dumb and stupid ). I just stood there frozen, talking to myself, ' is this happening for real ? '. Well I didn't know what to say back to her then. She caught me by surprise. Lol, things like that rarely happens to me. I means girls talking to me. 😲Come on !
😑So I do this part time job every early morning, daily. I get to pass by her house every day. But then something had to happen to me and I have to move somewhere.😞
Well last year I got back and another chance to see her again. It's been quite some time since I last saw her. During those gap years, I used to think about her, daily. Before going to sleep or in the morning and sad days. Like what she's doing now. And sometimes I dream about her in my sleep. Something strange about those dreams. Like in every one of those dreams about her I never once saw her(like her face). In those dreams I'll be passing her house and sometimes even entering her house hoping to see her but, no one will be there. And I'll wake up feeling very sad. After those dreams I'll think , ' what if the next time I see her, she already have someone, what if I'm too late '. 😔Yea thinking stuff like that really scares me.
There's something very different about her. 😌Well she got my attention that's for sure as the first time I saw her, I fell in love. She have this looks and she'll always smile at me whenever I meet her. Now that's something special. Won't you agree !
😲So last year (2017) I brought a gift to present her. And as of still now I still haven't give to her yet. 😟Ah ya yah....you must be wondering what the hell are you still waiting for ?
Well the thing is, due to exams and Christmas seasons I didn't get the chance. I Still get to pass by her house but nowadays I don't see her often. Maybe she's studying somewhere, training somewhere, busy or maybe waking up late. Who knows?
This year (2018) I recently brought another gift again. So come April and I'll be ready. Maybe this time carry the gifts with me every morning . And if I see her, I'll reach out my hand, drop the gift and run like hell (haha😄kidding).
Well since I have come this far, let me continue my story.
😩Once I saw her on the road as I was coming home. She was coming from opposite direction. I think she and her sister were grocery shopping. They went to a vegetables stall So I went across the road to a butcher shop trying to buy some meat. And as they were coming out, I came out too. 😤Suddenly I realize I'm on the wrong side of the road. But I still thought I'll get a chance to see her eye to eye. All of the sudden a vehicle pass through between us and at that moment I was thinking like, 'this just had to happen'. Well anyway I don't think she saw me that day. Right after that I felt ashamed thinking what am I doing and I went home .
Back in 2015, 2016 and 17, Me and and a good friend of mine we used to shares stories of our secret admirers. We often visit each other and only talks about that besides aim in life. I used to tell him, today I saw the girl I like. And he'll be like Oh' and reply back saying well I'm texting with mine right now.
Jeez😤Yup, compare to others I'm still ground zero.
In fact, the sad thing is I still don't know her name yet. I just wish I have more opportunity to meet and know her more.
Well that'll be all for now.
I know I'm not perfect. Over these recent years I have been battling with my personal demons. Trying to be a good human and such. And I don't think I'm doing a pretty good job at that. Well anyway I gonna keep my thumps up, pad myself on the shoulder and do it with a smile. 🙂
