I Have a Confession

my ex  said alot  about my family that they  treat you like a dog they dont  respect you and etc they think you are idiot... my frnds also use to say it but i fight with them on it and i am still with my family my family have given me  many pains and hurted me but i still repect them and want to be there for them ....  i know they were the only one in the end who were supporting me and taking care of my self  in my last bad incident when i broke apart literly .....they care but ..my siblings dont respect me  my little brother make fun of me with his frnd my  both little sisters  give me straight answer as a insult and say just shut up i hurts alot my mom and my dad  think i am an idiot who dont have sense .........  i n short word my family doesnt know who i am in real and what is my worth in  outer world.... some times i think i should go forign and get settle over there alone....  and thats why i believe that a person come alone in this world and goes alone from this world...  i believe in this saying  because my frnds  my love my family my relatives every one have  hurted me many times  that  i  want to be alone...but my responsibilities hold me back that i ahve to be thre forr my family support :( ..............just tired of my  life ....