I Have a Confession

trying to live every day but still i am dying from inside . i dont wish to live anymore or any reason to live my life any more but still try to live my life for my parents .. its hard for me to be mentally stable or emotionally stable i am so broken apart that i cant put myself together .. I AM SEARCHING WAYS TO PUT MY SELF TOGETHER BUT I AM FAILING ON EVERY STAND .. E.P IS HELPING ME TO SOME EXTEND BUT e.p is not effective because i can only talk to people when they are online just for some limited time  and they usually dont have concern with me  that much i try to be happy for others but i am not happy for myself  .. i truly wish that  my life would end now . i dont want to live it any more :(