Today I took a moment of silent and observe myself.
[c=#BF6900]"There's something inside me That pulls beneath the surface Consuming, confusing This lack of self control I fear Is never ending, controlling[/c]
[c=#BF6900]I can't seem to find myself again My walls are closing in (Without a sense of confidence) (I'm convinced that there's) (Just too much pressure to take) I've felt this way before so insecure[/c]
[c=#BF6900]Crawling in my skin These wounds they will not heal Fear is how I fall Confusing what is real,,[/c] [c=#000000]________________________________________________________[/c]
[c=#BF6900]So, once again I ask myself. Is this the type of person I want to be? Am I happy? What's wrong with me? Why can't I just make the right decisions and do what's right for once?[/c]
😩[big]You see it's like I want to do something Right but I want to do something Wrong too.[/big]
[c=#BF6900][u]So I came into a conclusion. And that is,,,If I want to move forward, I have to choose one. Good or Bad? Because I can't move forward if I choose both. That way I will never be satisfied.[/u][/c]
I forgot to mention that every one of us have this conflict going on inside. That I because we have a spiritual force in us, trying to persuade us to do bad things. That's what Satan does. He is the author of confusion. His is the voice we want to ignore. When one accepts Jesus as their personal Savior, they receive a new Spirit that helps them fight Satan on a spiritual level, so you can have peace, joy, and enjoy life. That new Spirit is the Holy Spirit. That doesn't mean everything will be hunky-dory. What it means is, you'll still have problems in life, as those help you grow, however, God will give you the strength to get through them.
When we spend too much time analyzing ourselves, we get too wrapped up in ourselves, then notice every little flaw. It's healthy and wise to focus on your future and what you wish to accomplish. Set goals.
