I feel a little bit freer today

I'm not trying to live up to some expectation that I can't and that has freed me some.
I had fallen into a bad pattern of thinking if this would change then maybe this would happen and I'd be a better person if I had this or I could achieved this...
Too damn old going to live one day at a time and not worry about how other people think I should be.
I had really thought I was over that, but I see now that I've not thought enough about what I really think ,want, or really truly believe.