Morning, a bad one
This morning I have a sore throat and the beginning of a bad cold. I'm also reflecting how old age is near to a horror movie at times. Everything that needs to be done is not only a lot more difficult to do but because of dementia it's near to always never done.
Just have a moment to think about that. My dad is now well into the grey zone and can't remember much what he needs to be doing nor what he has done before. The near term memory is gone and the long term one is getting more and more broken down.
That's the word for it. It's a slow drop into darkness. Perhaps that's why prayer helps, because it's indeed something one should keep doing actively. Personally, I'm getting more and more tired. Not only is the actual decline very difficult to process day in day out, but then there's work.
I'm working for over thirty years doing the same job. Like I posted before, I don't get any inch of regard to do what I've already done nor what I can contribute. Not only that, I get bullied into wanting to leave. That's the modern day solution for people like me. Get them out by bullying.
Of course, it's not done ouvertly but every day at the workplace I'm confronted by some mad person who changes everything only after a couple of years. There's the thing again. No waiting around to access the results nor a period of introduction. It's near to maddening.
More so because the lead isn't even accepting that at the beginning of any change there will be problems to cope with. Not only are the people still human beings, they're not even prepared correctly. My feelings are that I want to be around when she gets at a certain age when she'll be the person who needs help.
Just have a moment to think about that. My dad is now well into the grey zone and can't remember much what he needs to be doing nor what he has done before. The near term memory is gone and the long term one is getting more and more broken down.
That's the word for it. It's a slow drop into darkness. Perhaps that's why prayer helps, because it's indeed something one should keep doing actively. Personally, I'm getting more and more tired. Not only is the actual decline very difficult to process day in day out, but then there's work.
I'm working for over thirty years doing the same job. Like I posted before, I don't get any inch of regard to do what I've already done nor what I can contribute. Not only that, I get bullied into wanting to leave. That's the modern day solution for people like me. Get them out by bullying.
Of course, it's not done ouvertly but every day at the workplace I'm confronted by some mad person who changes everything only after a couple of years. There's the thing again. No waiting around to access the results nor a period of introduction. It's near to maddening.
More so because the lead isn't even accepting that at the beginning of any change there will be problems to cope with. Not only are the people still human beings, they're not even prepared correctly. My feelings are that I want to be around when she gets at a certain age when she'll be the person who needs help.
