Hi all! So am somewhat managing to get my things together - taking longer than expected as I am getting distracted by the lovely people of the village
There is something different about me this time - how many times have I said that, right?
But it's in the persistency, the change!
I am changing my situation for myself, it is a matter of time. It will take few months or years, but not too long either - I am on my way and it feels, on the final round, as if I have been on this efforts for over a decade and now I am focusing, gathering my forces.
I am soon to begin with my new commission. It feels bigger on the ground, it actually takes most of my space the blank canvas.
In the meantime, I have put the mandala art I was doing during my camping trip for sale. I still need to refine things, details around my sales, but it is out there! I decided too, I am going to change my narratives and old stories.
Beliefs about artists, art being sold, and these.
I am happy the project with the municipality did not come to fruition truly. As I see how I needed to direct this energy to myself. I feel better this way.
I am having strange dreams, I dream of people of my past, different people that I have forgotten, I dream of dreams I used to have repeatedly, but the feeling is different - I even received a phone call from someone from the past - I asked him to call him back another time - really I wasn't feeling like talking at all with him but I didn't have his number saved.
I sense a spirit in the house I am living. What to do. We will bear with one another.
What else...I am realizing how I am missing sexx but I am also then remembering how I wouldn't want to just go for it and leave again with a broken heart.
Overall I feel stronger, creative, how I have gained clarity and moving more focused.
My routine is a little lame, considering my meditation, kung fu, routines... And it just seems so very hard to get into one - moving houses so often isn't helping really. You could say is just an excuse, well, I will try to improve again.
I am doing bits but aren't enough. But today I took a very long sunset walk and somehow that felt good.
These my news - <3
But it's in the persistency, the change!
I am changing my situation for myself, it is a matter of time. It will take few months or years, but not too long either - I am on my way and it feels, on the final round, as if I have been on this efforts for over a decade and now I am focusing, gathering my forces.
I am soon to begin with my new commission. It feels bigger on the ground, it actually takes most of my space the blank canvas.
In the meantime, I have put the mandala art I was doing during my camping trip for sale. I still need to refine things, details around my sales, but it is out there! I decided too, I am going to change my narratives and old stories.
Beliefs about artists, art being sold, and these.
I am happy the project with the municipality did not come to fruition truly. As I see how I needed to direct this energy to myself. I feel better this way.
I am having strange dreams, I dream of people of my past, different people that I have forgotten, I dream of dreams I used to have repeatedly, but the feeling is different - I even received a phone call from someone from the past - I asked him to call him back another time - really I wasn't feeling like talking at all with him but I didn't have his number saved.
I sense a spirit in the house I am living. What to do. We will bear with one another.
What else...I am realizing how I am missing sexx but I am also then remembering how I wouldn't want to just go for it and leave again with a broken heart.
Overall I feel stronger, creative, how I have gained clarity and moving more focused.
My routine is a little lame, considering my meditation, kung fu, routines... And it just seems so very hard to get into one - moving houses so often isn't helping really. You could say is just an excuse, well, I will try to improve again.
I am doing bits but aren't enough. But today I took a very long sunset walk and somehow that felt good.
These my news - <3
