How I’m feeling today
Feeling tired and worn down today. I’m sitting at a Narcotics Anonymous meeting waiting for it to start, and honestly, I’m just feeling annoyed with people and life in general.
I slept a lot today, but I still feel exhausted. I feel old and weathered, like life has taken a lot out of me. I wish I felt more alive. I wish I had more energy, more excitement, more of a reason to wake up feeling good.
Tomorrow I have a therapy appointment, and I’m not even looking forward to it. I honestly don’t know what there is left to talk about sometimes. I have to go grocery shopping too, which means getting on the bus again. I really wish I had a car and didn’t have to depend on public transportation just to do basic things.
I’ve been having some pretty bad nightmares lately too, which definitely isn’t helping.
I’m sober. I’m showing up. I’m doing what I’m supposed to do. But that doesn’t mean I feel good. Some days I’m just tired, irritated, lonely, and down.
I slept a lot today, but I still feel exhausted. I feel old and weathered, like life has taken a lot out of me. I wish I felt more alive. I wish I had more energy, more excitement, more of a reason to wake up feeling good.
Tomorrow I have a therapy appointment, and I’m not even looking forward to it. I honestly don’t know what there is left to talk about sometimes. I have to go grocery shopping too, which means getting on the bus again. I really wish I had a car and didn’t have to depend on public transportation just to do basic things.
I’ve been having some pretty bad nightmares lately too, which definitely isn’t helping.
I’m sober. I’m showing up. I’m doing what I’m supposed to do. But that doesn’t mean I feel good. Some days I’m just tired, irritated, lonely, and down.
41-45, M
